Today is the first day of stage two and all the initiates are being put together finally. No one knows what to expect, and nervousness is in the air. They sit in a dark hallway, awaiting the fate that lies behind closed doors. Lynn, a Dauntless born, starts talking crap to Peter, and even though I don't like Peter, she makes me want to hit her. Her arrogance is not appreciated.
Tris becomes nervous as the time wears on. She has no idea what to expect, but can't stop her mind from wandering as one by one her fellow initiates are taken behind the closed doors. Finally, once her turn arrives, Tris is met with a horrific and familiar sight. From the metal chair to the computer screen, this room is a spitting image of her aptitude test, an event she would have preferred to keep in the past. I understand why she becomes so unnerved. It is like stirring up a problems that have already settled. Actually, this happened to me when I was writing my Fear Landscape paper. I had forgotten how much it hurt me to experience my fear the first time, so forcing myself to recall it was a devastating reality to me. Tris tries to keep her cool, especially in front of Four, but can't seem to overcome her nerves.
She is injected with a serum that contains a transmitter, a device that allows Four to watch her simulation. At this point, I would probably be screaming and begging to leave Dauntless. It has its perks, but overall, I would never make it there. I would probably pull an Al and cry if I had to hit people. Anyhow, back to Tris. Her fear comes off as strange. She finds herself in a field being attacked by crows. She isn't able to escape the simulation until she overcomes her fear or can control it physically. They way she describes it is really gross and it made me think of a horror film I saw a couple minutes of, where an entire town was wiped out by crows. To me, it is a silly fear, but then I realized it was symbolizing her fear of being out of control.
Tris is horrified by her experience, as I imagine the other initiates probably were. When she wakes up, she ends up smacking Four and I felt bad because she was just overwhelmed with emotions and wasn't thinking straight. I noticed it was like her animal-like side kicking in, because she was in survival mode at that point. Four offers to take her back to the dormitory, but she is determined to at least try to show the others that she can be strong. However, when she talks to him in the hallway just outside of the simulation room, she breaks down and reacts like I know I would in that situation. She longs for her home and wants to quit. I don't know how she has lasted this long, as I know I certainly couldn't. But, since Four is a sweet heart and charming and wonderful, he assure Tris that this did not make her weak. I love him by the way.
"But becoming fearless isn't the point. That's impossible. It's learning how to control your fear and how to be free from it, that's the point."
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